I'm so disapointed in myself.

I had a cupboard full of medifast and I was so, all over the place, I couldn't make myself stay true to the program. It's now January of 2012 and I've gained back all 60 lbs plus 10 more. I am so disapointed, it's been such a hard year. I understand that I have Hypothyroidisim, and, that has brought on Hoshamotos desease. If I don't get control - I will die early. I feel so bad. I must get back on Take Shape For Life. It made me feel so good. I experenced no blooting, no water retention, my joints didn't hurt, no hartburn, no alergies, no sinus problems, rapid weight loss. I was satisfied all day. I needed to keep busy but that made it better.

I called Shantell, my coach, and I am back on. I've made my first order and it should be here in a few days. I need everyones prayers.

ALL MESSED UP

During this last summer, 2010, my weight held steady, then during the month of September I gained 7 lbs. I had surgery the end of September and after that everything fell apart. I didn't get my food in September and I couldn't decide if I was going to eat it or not. I became so messed up on many levals. I finally received an order of medifast on October 13. Today is October 14, I had a cup of hot coco at 6:00 am and I just finished my bowl of blueberry oatmeal at 9:15 am. It feels so good to be back home. I have just been invited to go back to Ecudor and serve in the orphanages in March of 2011. Do you think I can loose 50 more lbs?

The Medifast 5&1 plan is the easiest, "meal planning, meal preparing and meal cleanup" plan I've ever been on. Anyway, since the first time I was on Weight Watchers and my mother shopped for and prepared and cleaned up the meals. I don't go to the store as much anymore, I don't open the fridge as much in a day as before, and I don't have to think about what to eat every day as much any more. I pre-order, I like to only have on hand what I eat. It doesn't take up much space as you can see. I have learned my favorites and I don't buy more that I need. If I do run out of my favorite, I am so excited when it comes again. I love, love, love the chocolet shakes. They are so easy to make with my little medifast shaker. I add a couple of ice cubs to it, and enjoy. I try and sit in a comfortable place with a good book so that I can sip and enjoy the experience.

I love the creamy soups the best and I add 1/2 teaspoon of chicken bouillon granuals with them. I have special glasses for each one.

I've learned to prepare the pudding about an hour before I eat it and put it in the fridge to get cold. WOW!

The bars are awesome to take in the car or my purse when I go. They all taste great and they are soooooooo satisfying.

I am so excited to be talking to you right now, about something that has taken a hold of my life and focused it towards health instead of sickness. 11 years ago, I had my second accident that caused me some pretty bad head trauma. Dealing with that, anxiety set in, and I agreed to a medication that would control the anxiety. Well 10 years later, I had gained 129 lbs. When my doctor ask me why I had gained so much weight, I just pointed to one of the side effects of the medication, "you don't care". Well, it did a great job all right, I was so much calmer and I didn't have those terrible attacks anymore. In fact, I was very chilled about most things. "I didn't care".

When I was 14 years old I was in my first accident. I had been hit by a speeding car. I was crossing the street and had fallen, and therefore my head came in contact with the car. Needless to say, I suffered head trauma then too. Well, each time one suffers head trauma it gets worse. One day, if this continues, it will kill me. And I am very grateful to be here still.

As I gained weight my back problems from my first accident got worse. My knees got bad, my hips hurt. I couldn't stand for 10 minutes at a time. My fear of falling got worse, because I did keep falling. I couldn't play with my grandchildren any more. I couldn't get up, it was hard to get down. I gave up buying anything pretty or fun. I didn't smile or laugh much anymore. I was very unhappy. I endured it though, I kept pushing and praying.

One day I received a flyer in the mail for a new chiropractor in my area that had a defusing machine. That machine really caught my eye, I had a feeling come over me.

One year later I was in so much pain I didn't want to even get up in the morning. I slept all the time. My family became so worried and they pushed me, Kinda like I must have pushed them when they were younger. It was killing me. One day,I was sitting at my desk, in tears and a feeling came over me. I remembered that machine and that chiropractor. Ya know, I still had that flyer, amazing that I did because I throw everything away. I called the number immediately and made an appointment.

The tears of pain could not be controlled at this point. I told him I was sorry, but did he think that he could help me? He took some exrays and said, "yes, you are the exact person that needs this machine". In fact you've come in just in time. A little while longer and I couldn't help you at all.

I must admit that I didn't have much faith in the outcome, but, I had allot of faith in the feelings that lead me here. And, I don't know, but, I was feeling allot of faith growing in Dr. Smith.

17 treatments is what it was going to take. The treatments were twice a week. It was the 4th week and I could fill a slight difference. Both in the treatment itself and in my movement afterwards. I prayed to hold on to that difference. The next treatment there was another slight difference. This continued for the rest of the treatments. Then I was told that I was done with the treatments, I wanted to scream, "No I can't be done, I'm feeling better and I don't want it to quit".

Dr Smith was a Health Coach for Medifast. I had been reading the material at times during my visits. I couldn't even consider making this change. I was recovering from so much pain. Dr. Smith said something that stuck with me. He said, "Cindy, I've done all I can do, to this point". However, I can continue to help, but you've got to do something too.

I think it took me a month to realize that I really wasn't in pain anymore. I also realized that I had developed some terrible habits that I had to break. I'm grateful to say, that I knew I was going to be able to do it.

Another month of changing some habits and gaining the faith I needed to move forward, I returned to Dr. Smith's office and ask to join Medifast. That was a week before thanksgiving in Nov. of 2009.

I guess I should be ashamed to tell you this, but I'm not, not after all I've been through, I as carrying 279 lbs on my 5'3" frame. I was 150 lbs at the time of the second accident, 114 lbs at the time of the first accident. It is now June of 2010, and I am 219 lbs.

I am going to share with you the rest of the story. But let me just do this little happy dance and tell you that I am now a Medifast Health Coach and I can help you. Let's get healthy together!